Why I hate having trouble TTC, Reason #5,862

It makes me very conscious of the passage of time. I, like many others, am afraid of that day when I wake up at age 85 and think, holy sh*t, where has my life gone. Yes, with any luck, I will be a cussing Grandma. I don't like to really think about the passage of time, I don't want to know just when every grain of sand slips through to the bottom half of the hourglass, but, that's what TTTC is doing for me.
It's been a year since I really started to feel the baby itch, and it feels like that year has passed in a flash. Where did that time go? And why do I not have a baby to show for it?
Every month passes in a flash as well. It seems like yesterday that I was waiting to O for the last busted cycle. And then, in the 2WW time crawls at an excruciating pace.

Reason #5, 862: TTTC messes with my perception of time.