Ooooh, Clomid, you let me down

Well, went for the 2nd u/s today to see the progress down in Ovaryville. Only one egg continued to grow, one got smaller and the other 2 are just chilling not doing anything. So, we now

• my left ovary has 2 follicles, one 19mm and the other 13mm
• my right ovary has 2 follicles, one 12mm and one 10mm
• my lining is 8.3, which, according to my post below, is just great. And I am supposing that it might even get thicker by the time I O.

So, basically, the Clomid didn't do shit for me. Well, perhaps it gave me 3 more eggs than I would have normally had, but they've turned out to be too small to be any use anyway.

This does not bode well for the success of this cycle.

I think I will ask to up my dose for the next round.

I have to go back in tomorrow morning to get another u/s and more bloodwork. I never used to get queesy about giving blood, but after getting a needle stuck in the same place before the previous hole heals (once a day for the past 3 days), its getting old fast. Today it really stung. And I have to go back tomorrow for the FOURTH blood draw and u/s. This is such a pain. They should go back to their OPK version of doing things. I guess this IS more reliable, but this going to the clinic every morning is a big pain in the ass. Thank goodness that it fell over the weekend too, so its not like I had to be late every morning for a week. I just can't think of a valid excuse for that. As it is I am going to be late for work tomorrow, and probably Tuesday, cuz I suspect that's when we'll do the IUI.
I really hope this IUI works, because I really don't want to have to do this again.
I know that if we have to move on to IVF it will be even more of a pain (literally and figuratively) but man, why couldn't we conceive like "normal" people.

Oh, and we saw the results of the H's last SA. 142 million swimmers in his sample, and they only need 5 million for the IUI. So, even if his morphology is not so great, I would think it would have to be pretty bad for them to need to weed out more than 137 million of them. I don't have the numbers exactly but his SA's have gone down like this:

1st SA: low volume, low concentration, morphology pretty grim
2nd SA: volume fine, concentration good, morphology not so great
3rd SA: volume a smidge on the low side, concentration great, morphology still not so great

But, the nurse seemed to think that it was fine for the IUI. Phew. Maybe his results aren't so great for "natural" conception, but I guess for artificial insemination its OK. I wonder if its the cutting down on the drinking, or the multivitamins that he is taking now that have improved his samples. I guess we'll find out on August 25 when we go see the urologist (who, by the way, is a bit of Rico Suave. Seems like a nice guy, but you just KNOW that he and his ego are great friends).

Talk about experiences in severe wrongness

Yeah, so we didn't hear that nothing was wrong.
I am trying not to panic, but the single SA that we did did not come back with positive results. I am hamstrung a little here, in that I know that Rich would not want his laundry aired in the public forum, so I can't go into detail. I am doing exactly what the Dr's don't like for you to do. I am evaluating things based on an incomplete picture, since its only been one SA, but seriously, its not good news, so its hard NOT to panic.

MFI is the worst kind. Its the kind that you can't really take any drugs for.
Sh*t.
Don't Panic.

And goddammit I always feel so rushed at the appointments.

So, even though it seems that it might be completely pointless, I go for my HSG on Thursday, and we talk to the RE next Tuesday.

I am going to go cry my fat self into a chocolate peanut butter ice cream cone.

Yes Oprah, I am eating emotionally. What the f*ck OF it?

UPDATE: I thoroughly enjoyed my ice cream cone.

The Beginning... (of the END?)

I sure hope not, but this is going to be the beginning of something. At least the beginning of knowing. Knowing something at least. Today is the big appt with the Urologist, and Rich is petrified that he is going to get the news that he has no sperm. No sperm at all. Nothing. I doubt thats the case. Frankly, I think we are going to hear that everything is normal. Then we will move on to more testing on me, for which I suspect we will hear that everything is normal. We will get that ever-so-lovely diagnosis of Unexplained Infertility. Which, even though a Nestie told me was that the best diagnosis to have, since its the one with the highest success rate, I still think I would prefer to have an actual target (actual diagnosis) to hit. At any rate, as of 2pm today one of the variables will either be eliminated, or targeted as the problem. I consider that somewhat good on any level.