I DO have a post in me (Dream Analysis; 8dpiui)

Night before last, I had a bit of a strange dream. I dreamt that I had a... well, lets just say a male reproductive organ. Usually, I don't remember my dreams at all, and if I do, they are always pretty straightforward, just reliving events that happened durin the day, or straight-up nightmares or stress dreams. But this, this was a pretty odd element that I felt that I should look up the symbolism of. Here is what I found:

To see a penis in your dream, signifies sexual energy, power and fertility.

I also found:

If a woman dreamt she had a male organ: if she is pregnant means she will have a baby boy, if she is not pregnant means her money will increase.

I have to say, I am OK with either of those (although I would prefer the former). Then, last night, I have more bizarre dreams. I think a chick that, once waking, reminds me of Anne Coulter (but without the douchebaggery) figured in it, but she wasn't prominent. The 2 things from my dream last night that really stuck with me, was that I owned a cow. I had adopted a white and tan cow, had brought her to a big farm to stable her there, and then, when I came back a few hours later, I couldn't find her. This is what a cow can symbolise:

In our dreams, this simple domestic animal can represent a variety of very important and deeply-felt issues. In some cultures the cow is a sacred symbol, representing divine qualities of fertility, nourishment and motherhood... The cow is mostly a positive dream symbol, and superstition-based dream interpretation say that grazing cows are symbols of prosperity, contentment and happiness.

So, both dreams have a fertility aspect to them. Interesting. But then... the final element to my dream... I was supposed to catch a train to go home, but I missed it because I didn't have my luggage. Guess what missing a train means in your dreams...

missing a train in your dream could mean a missed opportunity

Oh GREAT!

My interpretation has to be that my subconscious is telling me that I am in fact, not pregnant. It knows I am trying my damnedest, but sorry, yet another missed opportunity.

How depressing. Even my subconscious is working against me.

K' these baby dreams have got to stop

I don't know what this means, what Freud or Jung would say about this proliferation of baby dreams. I never used to have baby dreams, but last night I had my 3rd. The significance of this is compounded by the fact that I don't really ever remember my dreams. Ever. But last night, I had a pretty vivid dream. Some of the things were pretty clear (like my fear that I will be unable to breastfeed) but others didn't really make sense. So, here's how it went down.

I had twins, fraternal, a boy and a girl. My husband wasn't around though, and he wasn't there for the birth, or even after. Weird thing was, I didn't know I was pregnant. Now, I am a bit of a chubby chick, but not so much that I could go to term and not notice a rounder belly. Don't know what that meant.
Then, and this is the second dream to feature this, but, apparently, I forgot to feed my babies for a few days. They weren't hungry or fussing unduly, but I hadn't fed them. And then, when I tried to breast feed, it wasn't working. No milk. And I think, nurses had given them pacifiers or bottles, and I was angry at them for effing up my ability to breastfeed.
There was something else, but, I didn't write it down right away after waking up, so I forgot some of it. The things I can recall most vividly were a) my husband not being around, b) not knowing I was PG, c) having fraternal twins (boy and girl) d) being unable to breastfeed.

I suspect that it has something to do with the fact that we saw BabyMama last night. Oh, and that we have been watching the first season of LOST, and there is a pregnant woman on the show. I didn't wake up sobbing or anything, because the dream wasn't real, but it certainly makes the ache a little more intense.
I'm around O time, heading into the 2WW too, so this is when the longing gets a little more acute anyway.