God-f*cking-dammnit

Somehow, I have GAINED 3 pounds this past week. This makes NO sense. OK, so I ate bad foods, and I went over my 1400 cal a day goal by a little bit, but come ON. I can see not losing, but gaining? Ok seriously, that can't be the case, that means that I overate by 10,500 cal last week. Not. Fucking. Possible. I most certainly did not overeat by that much. AND I worked out. So, this is horseshit. For reals.
I haven't cried over weight in foreverago, but this morning, I was just so damned frustrated. Clearly, I am one of those people that needs a little pharmaceutical help.
But, according to my Dr, I can't do that, and be TTC at the same time. Weird, seeing as another girl I know who is seeing an RE was prescribed Phenteramine by her RE. I can't wait to get in to see mine. Maybe I can get some. But seriously, this is ridiculous. I am not fooling myself about the calories. I watched every single one. I should not have gained, and I sure should not have gained 3 pounds.

At any rate, I will keep on trucking. Its a fresh week.
If "weight" was an entity, I would beat the ever-loving shit out of it. But its not, so all I can do is beat up myself.