Silly to worry about now

...but I think I will be pretty devastated if I have to do a C-section (if I ever manage to get knocked up). I was practicing a little self-torture, watching a few episodes of A Baby Story. As it happened, all the women had to have C-sections. That is not the way that I want to do it. Don't get me wrong, if it comes down to either one of us dying, or having a C-section, well then, gut me like a fish, but otherwise, I don't want to do it that way. I know, I know, its hard to say without having been in that situation, but I know what I want my labor to be like, and being strapped to a table behind a curtain is not it.
I am sure that I am going the be the pregnant woman that the Dr. can't stand, because I am going to be pretty particular about how I want it to go down. I want it to be as natural as possible. I want the baby to by placed on my chest as soon as s/he is born, goo and all. With the C-section, they can pretty much just nuzzle at your cheek for a few seconds. Not how I want it. With the giant curtain in front of you, you can't see anything thats going on, nor can you feel anything.
I don't know, I guess I might change my mind later, but at this moment, I would be dev-a-stated if I had to have a C-section.