What's it like?

Sometimes, I kinda feel like there is a finite amount of misery in the Universe. Like, if someone experiences a lot of misery, there is someone else out there who isn't experiencing misery, or as much misery, because someone else is "using" it at the moment. Does that make sense? I'd say, in the grand scheme of things, that typically, my level of misery fluctuates between, say... well, lets be honest, maybe 5 - 10%? Life is pretty good on the H. homestead. Not much to complain about. Rich and I both have jobs we like (not lurve, but like) we have a decent home, we have money to eat out, go see movies, buy clothes, go away on small trips, stuff like that. But with this TTC stuff, I think my misery is amping up, and will more once it really hits me that we might honestly never have kids. It could happen. I am not confronting that issue yet, but it could.
There must be someone out there in this great big world that just kinda lives their lives, at a flat line. No great misery, but no great happiness.
I believe that I pay it forward. Take this for example. I waited a very long time to find my husband. I was 29 before I met him. I kissed a lot of frogs. But, since I had shit luck for so long, it eventually came back to me, and I landed the best man any woman could ask for.
In my youth, I didn't have a lot of friends. I moved around a few times, and I remember, in that typical teenage angst kind of way, lamenting that I had no friends, nothing to do, nowhere to go, no one to be with. Now, I am jumping around in great friends, great family, people who love me, and I love. I paid in advance.
I am hoping that I am paying in advance for this too. You have to suffer a little bit for a great reward, right? That's kinda what I believe. It makes it all the sweeter when you get something that you've worked for, and wanted for a long time.
But I know there are people out there who probably don't have to work that hard, who don't have to pay in advance, that things come to really easily. And I wonder what that's like.
I don't think that I would trade places, because I think I am a better person for having to work for things, for not expecting things to just come to me.
But sometimes, I wonder what it would be like.